with birthday wishes out of the way, i'd like to get serious for a moment.
some of you readers have made comments about me being a super mom (or something like that), and while i thank you for the compliment and am happy to know i appear to have some parts of my life in order, i want you to know that it is sooooo not true!
the truth is, i'm figuring things out along the way, probably just like you are!
one thing i've learned from being a mom and teacher is that no two kids are exactly alike and kids behave differently at home than they do in public... sometimes drastically so, sometimes just slightly so. as a parent, i get to experience both extremes and something right about in the middle! most of the time i am happy my own kids keep me on my toes, because i feel it makes me a better teacher. other times i wish their own teachers would just take them home for the night so i could have some peace and quiet!
ever since going back to work after natalie was born i've been struggling with how to balance work and home. i find i spend waaay too much time on work stuff, but i can't seem to lessen the load. no matter how much i try to be organized and on top of things, there is just always a ton to do and if i'm not prepared, then i can't do my job and i let lots of people down. if i commit more time to planning and preparing my lessons, i spend 10 hours a day at school and my own family suffers.
i'm not complaining, just trying to explain that things are not always rosey around here. that my life is real life, no matter what it looks like on a blog.
and things are not more difficult just because natalie joined our family (currently, she's the easy one!)
i feel teaching has become more demanding over the past few years and my own kids are getting older and their needs are changing. i feel i've got the baby and toddler thing down, but pre-teen? not so much. and if you think i'm refering to taylor, he is only part of that picture. i think zach is going through a super-early, pre-teen, classic middle kid quandry. oh, the attitude! i know what you are thinking--not zachy bob?!? i know, right?!
so that may explain why i haven't been posting as much. i've just been trying to figure out where and what can be cut from my life to make things a bit easier on me. by no means do i want to cut the blog out completely... writing here makes me happy. it's an outlet. and a reminder of what we have done and how far we have come. i want to write more! and i will as soon as i can.
promise!
joe and i have been watching mad men on netflix. seeing what things were like 50 years ago... well, let's just say i am so thankful for a wonderful husband who willingly helps me out. and when neither of us know what to do, at the least we have each other to laugh with! (even though he looks super serious in this picture, he's a very funny guy!)
happy wednesday everyone!
2 comments:
This is extremely frustrating for me because every time I write my comment, enter the word verification, then hit enter, my post doesn't show up!@#$%&*%$#*!!!
OK, lets try this again... 3rd time now :<{
I think you ARE a "Super Mom"!!! Everyone has bad or off days now and then, yes, even Super Moms. So I'm guessing that today must be one of those.
You are a Terrific AND Super Mom (and Wife). You have 4 very wonderful and energetic kids... 3 very busy, busy boys and a one year old that hasn't slept through the night yet, not even once. You are also a full time teacher, with a big class of very demanding 6 year olds. Your home is too small for your family, which tends to make things look more chaotic than they really are. Luckily, you have a great husband who is totally a "hands-on Dad". So again I say, "YOU ARE A SUPER MOM"!!!
I understand. Balance in all things grasshopper ... the words of the Master. When you are centered you KNOW it ... you FEEL it. At that point I would say you are as balanced as one can be.
"... i find i spend waaay too much time on work stuff, but i can't seem to lessen the load. no matter how much i try to be organized and on top of things...."
Then you are not spending waay too much time.
"there is just always a ton to do and if i'm not prepared, then i can't do my job and i let lots of people down."
It sounds to me as that you are only letting yourself down. From my observation you do considerably more than the average bear, under very stress-full conditions.
I am aware, and perhaps you see them at school, of students who are A students, but think of themselves as C-, or even D students. It may be difficult for a teacher to put aside judgements, but perhaps in this case it might help sooth a savage breast.
Namasté Julie, you have always excelled and perhaps I owe you an apology for that. Maybe you heard of the book, "Catch-22". In essence when it is okay to not be okay, then, and only then, am I okay. A real catch-22, no ?
You do good. Namasté daughter.
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